A premature birth nightmare.

    At 30 weeks gestation, I believe it was June 30th.. I know it was a Saturday.. I went to work like any other day. However, I started to get a weird cramp that didn't subside. I rested, drank a lot of water, but nothing helped. I got of work at 3pm, went home and I was feeling like me again. We had decided to go out for dinner that night and when I was in the restroom I noticed I was bleeding. Attempting not to panic, I called my drs office who said I was find and I just needed to do kick counts. But as the nurse continued to ask questions she had deduced I had lost my mucous plug. So to labor and delivery we went!

    We were placed into triage around 6pm and immediately hooked up to a TOCO monitor and a fetal monitor. Jason was moving beautifully and hr was great! However I was contracting every 3 minutes.. not unusual for me as I was diagnosed previously with an "irritable uterus". My cervix was promptly check which revealed I was effaced to about 20% and dilated 1cm. I was given medication and iv fluids to stop contractions. The conservative measurements failed.

    It was like everything was moving very slow yet fast at the same time. A nurse came to admit me and I was taken to a full blown labor and delivery room. Scared as hell, my husband and I sat quietly as a whirlwind grew around us. Medications were being hung, I was signing consent forms for delivery, anesthesia came in to ask about and epidural.. I was still attempting to wrap mind around delivering at 30w0d.

    I contracted well into the night but thankfully my cervix hadn't changed anymore. Every hour past the administration of steroids for my baby's lungs was a huge goal.

    The next morning I was moved to the antepartum floor. We stayed in the hospital for 4 days. I had learned all about NICU'S and premature babies. I also learned my a1C was down to 5.6%.

    I was put on total bed rest until delivery. No work. No cleaning house. No nothing!

Finally, little feet

I know its been forever.. probably years since I have been on here. At one point in the fertility journey, I believe I reached the darkest place I have ever been and I turned away from almost everything. I'm back now :) and I hope that I can make blogging apart of my life again.. that being said, I have a HUGE update to do.

Yes, I finally have a single pair of little feet. Let me start with December of 2012.

We took the November-December cycle off. I just finished two round of clomid and a chemical pregnancy. I was waiting for CD 1 to go back to the RE.

My body felt funny and I did an opk December 8th and it was blazing positive. I know we weren't trying but it was awesome to see my body finally working. I kept doing opks a few days in a row and all positive!!!

December 29th I finally decided to quit putting off testing. I had been cramping badly for days, wondering why AF was no where to be found. There I was, sitting in the bathroom dipping a pregnancy test. The pink dye ran across the screen and I stared at the test area. I saw something. All I could think is my eyes are playing tricks!! Seconds that felt like hours ticked by and a beautiful pink line started to appear. My heart stopped, sped up, and skipped a beat all at the same time. I yelled frantically for my husband. When he came in all I could say was, "I'm pregnant!" Sure enough I was screaming and crying. Of course we ran out and bought several more tests, just to make sure!

Everything was positive, including digitals! Of course we were ecstatic bit by this point we had miscarried 4 babies, so we were "cautiously excited".

My first beta was December 30th- 276 :)

Throughout the next few weeks I had the worst cramping which landed me with a beta every 2-3 days for about two weeks. They always went up. The most beautiful thing ever.

Youtube TTC Channel

Not sure how many of you know about my TTC youtube channel, anywho here is the link

http://www.youtube.com/user/MrsJones0731/videos 

I would love for everyone to check it out! Subscribe! Leave a comment! Hope that everyone enjoys it!

Question, Ladies.

    So I am sure i'm not the only one that does this, or at least I hope not... For a few years now we have been buying little baby things here and there... mostly things on clearance or really really cute things we just had to have. Today I was on ebay and found these

I know, super cute, right?!?! ahh! so cute! Paid 7.50 for them on Ebay, free shipping. They are from Mudpie.. I think they have a website...

   Anyway, we don't have much, but we do have maybe a plastic tote full. I was wondering, should I do a baby buys blog?! I figured it would be really boring, but maybe it wont be? I will probably also do a video on my youtube also.  I'm feeling a bit more optimistic this cycle.. not sure why, and I probably shouldn't get my hopes up but sometimes that's hard to do I guess. Anyway, just wanted to share this!

Yay! Good News Everyone!

    Sorry it's been so long since my last post. We are looking at moving, Nate started a new job, and things have just been hectic in this house!!!

    We went back to the RE this past Monday, the 5th.  If you all remember, we haven't been back since he made us take a break back in October or November. He sat us in his office and said my levels of everything were looking good and he wanted to take the next step to get me pregnant! Woohoo! He wrote me my first prescription for clomid! Starting out on 50mg, CD 3-7.  Was on CD 26 day of doctors appointment but he went ahead and gave me provera to go ahead and start the cycle so we can start clomid!! So excited!!! Finally, some medication that is going to get stuff done. I go in for a mid cycle ultrasound on CD 12 or 13!!!! :D:D:D Honestly I am not expecting the 50mg to work for me. Since I got sick at the beginning of last month I have not been taking my metformin! I know I know, its bad.. I tried to take it the other day and I was SO SICK, it was the worst I have felt in a long time. I just couldn't bring myself to take it again and there was no way I was going to be able to go to work with what it was doing to my stomach.  Who knows, 50mg may be all we need!


Oh yeah, I am on day four of ten with provera... so six days of pills left. They are doing a number on me this time... Hot flashes, mood swings, the works... what is the deal with that?!

   Not much else is going on, I have lost another 8ish pounds since my last appointment with my family doctor in December. I'm not going to be all hardcore weight loss... bad for fertility. But I have made different lifestyle choices that are leading to a healthy weightloss, 1lb a week or so. That is fine by me.. I honestly wouldn't loose any weight, I really love my body the way it is, but I am doing for the sake of my fertility.

    I know I am going to get pregnant.. I know it is going to happen. It has to. Its going to work. It will work. Maybe not this cycle, but I know it will. I just have that feeling like it is our time. Things are great other than our incomplete family status.

                                                Look below for a bad ass rx!

Update!

    Hey there, I know it has been a while. First off, I randomly started AF yesterday. It was a 31 day cycle for me. For the last 6 months my cycle lengths have been 45-50 days. Which is weird, becuase I had to stop taking metformin about 2-3 weeks ago because of some illness I was going through.

   Total different story. At the begining of the month my doctor thought I was having an appendicitis. Was going to go in for surgery that night, but they figured out that it was not an appendicitis. I ended up with gastroenteritis... which is like metformin side effects times 100. I lost 15lbs in 5 days. I felt like I was literally going to die. About a week and a half later I feel better.

  Think everything is fine now? Not quite. I woke up the day before yesterday with a terrible toothache. Went to the dentist that day and they scheduled me for surgery the next day (yesterday) to have all 4 of my wisdom teeth removed! So yesterday I had that done. It was a really weird experience. Here I am though, one day after the surgery and I am feeling ok. I am a little sore, and the only thing I can eat is mashed potatoes and ice cream.... Which I normally love but when thats all I can eat, its getting old!!!!

   We are still going back to the RE on March 5th. Still excited!!

Not much else is going on. I have no idea when I will ovulate this cycle. It seems each cycle is getting shorter and shorter. Which is good, but now I have no idea when I will ovulate!!!

CD 3 Update

    To start this blog off, this has been the WEIRDEST af I have ever had. Usually hell has broken loose by now. However, this af is unusually manageable. Maybe I am just getting "healthier" or something, would the metformin do this? Its just strange.  I thought the bleeding I am experiencing might be implantation or something, I know, I am reaching pretty far out. But, I have heard of women that mistake implantation or early pregnancy bleeding for af (?) so I have been taking hpts and not really seeing anything.  So I am expecting the flow to pick up, but today is day 3 and my cycle doesn't really go for more than 4 or 5 days (?). I am so lost.

    On another note, the last time I bought some first response pregnancy tests I got a fertility test with it. I know I have used them before, but I don't think I ever read the instructions. So today I used the fertility test by the instructions.  It is basically just an FSH test.

Results look normal, though at the RE he did an ultrasound and said there were PLENTY of eggs left, so I didn't really expect this to be elevated.

I have been using my ovacue, but of course we wont be able to tell anything with that for a few days... like 20 ish to be exact (since my cycles are longish- 46 days is the average right now for me.)

Nothing else to update!  Hope everyone is doing well! 

Say some extra prayers for a blog buddy of mine who is 12 dpo and is testing on Monday.. she is going to be the best mommy ever, her baby is just being picky about when he or she wants to be born!